Back in the saddle

Maybe I should have titled it "The more things change...." since the few posts I managed to actually write in 2005 *still* have relevence today, more than a year later. I don't know why I fell off the blogging wagon as quickly as I jumped on then.

I know part of it - I'd even venture to say nearly all of it - has to do with the fact that I can't get over the hurdle of "do I have anything worthwhile to say". My need for perfectionism hampers my ability to actually produce anything. I really need to work on this.

Why this is all bubbling to the surface again now is due to some heavy-duty soul searching again. I get so tangled in the web of my own thoughts that if I don't start writing them down and putting some order to them, I slip into a funk of depression. I feel like Pigpen walking around with a cloud of dirt around me..only my "dirt" is mental noise.

Anyway, I'd like to do some "retro" posting for the previous year, a sort of "best of" what I would have written, had I actually written it. But for now, I will go forward. This is the principle I am trying to apply to everything I do lately. Because, if you think about it, trying to "catch up" never works, and in fact, you rarely *do* catch up and instead spend the entire time racing to get to the end, only to find yourself at the beginning.

I can't claim this is an original thought. I've seen it applied in various scenarios...for example, when sorting photographs and arranging them in albums or scrapbooks - most people tend to want to start in chronological order with the oldest photos. The *better* way (in my opinion) is to start with the pictures you took yesterday.

This concept finally got drilled into my head through an unlikely source - Flylady. Yes, you read that right. I have never considered myself the most domestic of individuals, but there is something about Flylady's approach and system that I like. After resisting it for a long time, I've joined the cult and am a feather-duster carrying member of the FlyClub. And her mantra is "You are not behind. Jump in where you are."

What great advice. And what a wonderful way for people to give themselves a sense of accomplishment and forward momentum. It's working for me, anyway.

So, rather than bemoan the time I've let slip by and the lack of robust archives, I carry on from here. I don't really know what direction this blog will go in. I so admire blogs with a razor-sharp focus, that are information-driven and to the point. But I am more of a Renaissance soul, and so expect I'll let the current of my thoughts take me along until I determine if there is a destination or really all about the journey.

Thanks for coming along with me!